The Cardinal. A well-recognized sign chosen by our loved ones to show us they are near. Maybe more observable than some other signs that our angels choose to give us. Though my Morgan preferred to be more obscure, or rather unnoticeable, he chose the Cardinal as his special way to come thru to me. Bold and handsome. That vibrant red. Red – his favorite color with almost everything.
I had lived in my home seven and a half years before I had seen this majestic bird in my yard. My guess is that another seven and a half years or more would pass and my yard would have still been majesty free…
My son, Morgan, took his life in my garage on Thursday late afternoon, December 1, 2016. The morning after, quite early as I was just being introduced to The Fog that I was about to travel deeply into and could not sleep, I had stepped outside my back patio doors for an unknown, at the moment, reason. Normally I would be checking on the dogs, however, the dogs were not outside. They were sound asleep; content. As I stepped out and glanced toward the backyard, I noticed a bit of red out of the corner of my eye on the back fence next to the garage. This red really stood out to me against the drab Fall scenery. As I looked again to see what this was that had caught my eye, my beautiful, handsome Morgan was taking flight. He was providing me the chance to catch that glimpse to show me that he was “okay”. That he was off to the next phase of his life. That was the reason I had stepped out my patio doors at that moment, that morning. He was calling for me.
It took me some time to come to terms with this concept. I had heard thru the years “when a Cardinal appears, an angel is near” and other similar sayings. And, when I shared this milestone with a few close family members, this notion was embraced. It was almost rehearsed. Like the well-known. However, The Fog I was entering had me in denial. Questioning coincidence vs. conviction. But this Cardinal continued his presence after that first flight and drew me in with his continued visits. The belief and comfort slowly manifested itself within me and is now something I look forward to each day.
This Cardinal has become a member of my surroundings. My yard. My home. He has met a Lady Friend as well and has additionally created a family. Three babies. Three males. Born last summer. Morgan Juniors if you will. And I have had the pleasure and enjoyment of witnessing the growth of these stunning birds. I have developed a great fond for this Cardinal. Capturing photos as often as I am able. Harboring a feeling of melancholy when I miss his visit; praying he returns. Sharing such with my family and friends. And most importantly, letting his sight soothe my heart, mind, and soul. I hope this Cardinal finds as much enjoyment and purpose by being present for me as I do in feeding him, watching him, and relishing in his beauty. And I hope he knows this home is now forever his.
This Cardinal. My Morgan. Solace.
♥ Much love
~ Mother of Logan & Morgan 12.1.16
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